Waking Basic: #EGO and the ANTs #positivethinking #change
Everyone has negative thoughts. It is a part of this human journey
Where do negative thoughts come from?
Our ego? What is this ego anyway?
According to the dictionary, the basic term for the EGO is a person's sense of self-esteem or self-importance; in psychoanalysis, it is defined as the part of the mind that mediates between the conscious and the unconscious and is responsible for reality testing and our sense of personal identity; and in metaphysics, it is a conscious thinking subject.
Whatever it is, how does this ego even exist?
The EGO, like everything else, is made up of thoughts. And thoughts are empty until we apply meaning to them.
Does the negativity come from the ego?
In the early 1990's Dr. Daniel Amen, a clinical neuroscientist, board-certified psychiatrist and brain-imaging expert, put it this way. Coining the term ANTs (AUTOMATIC NEGATIVE THOUGHTS), Dr. Amen says that ANTs are "cynical, gloomy, and complaining thoughts that just seem to keep coming all by themselves." He says one of the biggest problems is that these thoughts become self-fulfilling prophecies.
Are they that automated?
EGO or ANTs, these seemingly omnipresent negative thoughts can run our lives. If we identify with them, we give them our power.
It has happened to me a lot over my journey. But it wasn’t until recently that I had no choice but to let them go. For this, I am thankful.
If you read my blog you know I have been writing a memoir. I had just finished it.
I sent my book to an agent that requested my manuscript. I was waiting to hear back.
I was recovering from pretty heavy jetlag (9 hours worth) after a trip across the ocean. My head was in a daze
I developed an intense head cold - chills, stuffy nose, and more brain fog.
The negative thoughts came flooding in:
“What have you been doing for the last year and a half, you loser? Writing?”
“What will everyone say when you fail?”
“No one is going to want to publish your book.”
Exhausted, sick and helpless, I surrendered. I opened my heart to the emptiness of the Universe and let them all go. It was in that moment that I realized, I DON’T HAVE TO FED THEM – the EGO or the ANTs.
What happens when you don’t feed this sense of importance or the pesky mere appearances is a miracle. With no meaning applied to these troublesome thoughts, they become powerless and empty, and then they disappeared.
It is so empowering! And it takes practice. Now every time I notice a negative thought in my head, I remind myself, DON’T FED THEM.
Don’t feed the EGO.
Don’t feed the ANTs.
It lightens your heart and provides space in your mind, on your journey to find your way home.
We all have a choice.